Two thoughts which have nothing to do with one another:

1. I realized today, that I am exactly where I never wanted to be in my life. I am more or less a drop-out of a school that I swore I would never attend. I have a job that controls my life and will screw me over in the end. I live in a town that I have hated since I was a little girl.
I am not being depressed about it. I am just coming to terms with it. And trying to figure out what I need to do to fix it and be happy.

2. I put on my docs and fred perry jacket yesterday, and felt more like myself than I have in AGES. If I could find a reliable way to straighten my hair (that wouldn't take two hours every morning), I would say "fuck it" and finally get a chelsea hair cut. Not the full shaved one, because I want to be approachable at work. But the sort of longer, cute-ish one. I am and always will be an Oi! girl in my heart.